sky lit with the Roche sign
The spins continue for days.
I hold my head to keep them still.
I make the only phone call I’m allowed to make.
With the same response from the other line.
The tears flow effortlessly
Making me want to end it as quickly as it started.
I catch myself before I fall farther
Clicking the light back on.
I scream your name in my head feeling the weight
This time I let go; I let myself fall
I hear your voice with it’s soft tones, your meek smile
I slowly sink farther
The yelling gets louder
Someone scoops me up
Repeating my name
Sharp Pain left arm
Absolute control
Within it’s loss
And just like that your face is erased your meek smile your soft toned voice
Like it never existed.
As I lay down, the numbing takes hold and I remember the truth.
Once again, leaving you behind with my consciousness
